Last week, I just sat here, watching my life passing on by me. Thinking nothing of it. I didn't even feel motivated to write, much less motivated to finish the canvas projects for my painting class.
Something happened in class today that gave me a grim reminder. I won't get into the details, but the bottom line is, if we keep trying to deny how we really feel, and keep throwing our feelings about a situation that happened at the time on the back burner to deal with later, instead of dealing with it now when the feelings need to be expressed, one day down the pike, you will end up breaking down mentally to a point of being a vegetable.
There are a lot of things I have thrown on the back burner because I didn't know how to deal with it. Stuff that I was told by the most high 10 years ago. Stuff that would take place. Stuff that is happening now before my eyes. Stuff that is inevitable because of the choices that others made.
There are a lot of things I never imagined. I never imagined living in a world where technology would be advanced faster than learning how to master the latest gadget in one day. Never imagined that I would lose my family spiritually. Never imagined that I would know and witness great evil that exists in the world. Never imagined that I would be holding a key that the bastards of the new world order have been dying to take away from me for years. A key that can change anything at the drop of a hat.
The story of my life is starting to unravel. What happens next, only I would know. Life goes on. What does time mean to you? Time means a great deal to me. More than I probably will ever understand.
Is alright to let life pass for a moment or two ... long as you pick up and carry on again.
None of us have all the answers. Keep asking those questions. You are not alone in any of it. Thanks for sharing !
Posted by: James M Booth | Thursday, April 13, 2006 at 10:39 AM