Someone once said to me that tears are useless but they fall nonetheless. I have never seen such an uproar in my life. The blog stat counter has wheeled like mad, and so has my inbox that has been flooded with heart breaking letters. To think that I have known all about sorrow and hopelessness, it's something that we all have known in living in this crap hole world.
Some people have bats, grilling forks and guns in their hands, demanding to execute whatever/whoever is responsible in me leaving the forums besides the subhuman freak from outer space. I won't mention the name of the forum or the name of the fruitcake owner that became a straw that broke the camels back, if you will put it as that. He still can't figure out why his forum is like living in the cemetery with the few dead crawling out of their graves daily to piss, moan and groan. The only thing I'll miss is the outback wisecracks the aussies made. What I won't miss [and you can take it all the way to the bank to insure it] is the "suck it all up" phrase that was constantly used. What kind of response is that? Do a google search on it and then say it to me again afterwards.
I won't be returning to the John Titor fan forum either. Lamenting is a chore and Johnny isn't coming back, regardless of what some of the hard core lovers say. I remember the hard time some people gave John Titor when he first appeared at the Time Travel Institute forum. It's just a memory now, as he came and went. I actually have a tape reversal of me saying who John Titor REALLY was, but I am not putting it up. The less the new world order knows, in terms of time travel, the better. It's bad enough that they raided Iraq to take control of the stargate that's there to attempt another Philadelphia experiment. The freaks never learn. There are some things that you can't try to change through time, no matter how hard you try.
Only time will tell if I return like a thief in the night to the other forums or not. To return, or not to return, that is the Shakespearean question that I will think about. Meanwhile I leave you with one of the letters that was sent to me in response of my walking out the forum door:
Date: Fri, 26 May 2006 00:43:50 -0700 (PDT)
From:
Subject:
To: "Xena Carpenter" <xenacarpenter@yahoo.com>
There are all kinds of mean and wicked people in this
world, Xena... one only has to choose where they want to go
in life and who they choose for their lovers and/or friends.
"We become the company we keep"... Just remember that!
And even though we SAY we are not like the ones we
keep company with.. WE WILL BE JUDGED by
the company we keep. No amount of trying to convince
others we are not like that, it won't matter in the end, cause
that's how we will be judged. A good name is more
precious than gold. But a tarnished name will always be
tarnished. One can never get the rubbish off no matter how
hard they polish it to make it look good or shine.
I realize I am speaking like I am an authority on humans,
when I am not. But I do know a lot of things and I have
learned a lot of things over my life span. I also realize I
am not whollier than thou either. But in little things, I am
mostly right. Even though I am old, I have learned a lot
over the years ---- from past mistakes, to seeing others
making mistakes as well. But it's a matter whether we
continue to keep making these same mistakes as to how
far we can go in life.
I might not have much Xena, but I do have peace of mind. The
only thing in life that is secret about a person is their THOUGHTS.
Other things will be told or revealed in some form or fashion.
Things we do, will be known regardless. A shining example
of that is this idiot woman - John Gotti's daughter who has
her own show. Dont remember the name of it. But look at
the character she represents on her show. She's tarnished
goods no matter how much she tries to polish her image.
Mainly cause of her Daddy. Look at the screaming and yelling
she does at her kids. Look what all she had given them and how
they think they are GOD. What an image to present to the
world as a good family.
No matter how much she tries to polish herself, no matter
how many shows she has presenting herself in another light,
she is and will remain the 'daughter of John Gotti'...... Her
daddy tarnished that whole family and it will stay tarnished
forever.
I think his name is Harry Hamlin or something like that. He
played a gay man in some movie. He was on some show
the other night and he says now, in the making of that movie,
it has kept him from ever getting good movies. So you see
how he tarnished his own career....... and probably for the
amount of money he made off it. Dunno.
Just look at this world around us now. Many years ago, we
never ever dreamed things would become like they have.
More and more murders, vilolent people everywhere, all the
stealing, drugs, gangs, in influx of the messkins flooding our
country gobbling up our welfare system and all the things
our own people have worked so hard to have, and our
government is turning a blind eye to all of it. If they wanted
to help that country, then why dont they build companies in
that country where they can have work to ship to places around
the world.
But you see, that govt and people and drug lords control every
thing around, and are so corrupt, that nothing could survive.
They did this to themselves. They ALLOWED this to happen
all for the greed of GOLD and what it can do for them. Look
at all the killings on a daily basis with those drug lords. They
just killed two policemen and beheaded them and stuck one of
their heads near one of the govt buildings. Can you imagine
such evilness. In other words, this could happend to you is
what they were trying to say.
All for the one thing called GOLD. Yet those idiots politicians
in Congress and the president want to give them amnesty, so
they can continue to eat up the very core of this society.
If the govt thinks for one second, they will punish all the places
of businesses, that is the laugh of the century. They will never
find ALL of them. They will have two sets of books, and those
messkins will lie and lie and lie. Half of them do not have steady
jobs, they will work here and there and there, now how are you
gonna know who made what? How are ya gonna know how
long they have been in this country. TWO YEARS, you say?
I laughed and laughed at that remark when I heard it. By the
time they catch even a fourth of them.. 20 years will have passed.
So how are ya gonna send someone back who has been here
2 years when it took them 20 to find them.. This is my own
thinking, Xena, not any one else's. That's the most insane thing
I have ever heard of.
All the while, our very own citizens are suffering cause of the
closed hospitals and the cutting back on what medical we get
from Medicare. Our Social Security will be non existant in
time to come. Then what will we do when that no longer
exists. Oh ... wait.. we will pay those messkins who paid
into it with their meager salaries they SAID they paid in while
living in Messiko... This is insane. The whole world is going
to hell in a bread basket.
The wickedness of the universe. The uncaring about one's
neighbor. The greediness of our minds wanting more and
more and more. We are never satisfied. We will never be
satisfied.
.......we will pay those messkins who paid
into it with their meager salaries they SAID they paid in while
living in Messiko...
........................... The uncaring about one's
neighbor. The greediness of our minds wanting more and
more and more. We are never satisfied. We will never be
satisfied.
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These are two comments from the person above. Does this sound like a person, that loves his neighbor and is a person of God?
Does God see the color of our skin? Thats all I want to say. It makes me very sad and it hurts my heart. Im sure it hurts the heart of our Father too. :(
Posted by: Kimmy | Saturday, May 27, 2006 at 05:27 AM